I used to write a poem a day when my blog first started. Sir would usually read my poem before I posted it. He knows that I’m a bit of a perfectionist and tend to beat myself up a bit when I catch an error after it’s already been posted. So Sir would edit it if needed much like he did for a couple of blog posts and a couple of chapters of the story I had been writing.
You are my sunshine, my only sunshineYou make me happy when skies are grayYou’ll never know dear how much I love youPlease don’t take my sunshine away You Are My Sunshine by Jimmie Davis Many attribute authorship of You Are My Sunshine to Jimmie Davis in 1940, but it has been recorded in 1939 by The Pine Ridge Boys and The Rice Brothers Gang. Although, there are rumors about who the author may be, the real author is not confirmed. Jimmie Davis bought the rights to the song and recorded his own version in 1940. Later, Bing Crosby and Gene Autry came out with their own versions of the song and turned it into a hit song. Now, I wasn’t born in the 40s. I was not alive for any part of that decade. I am pretty young, but this song has remained popular even in modern days. You may […]
*Warning: this post contains graphic nature and references to rape. If you are under 18 or sensitive to graphic content, please do not proceed. Shame tends to silence us. We don’t want others to know what causes us to feel dirty and disgusting. We don’t want to wear that disease on our sleeve. But sometimes, voicing our shame leads to freedom from the inner demons that oppress us. A lot of times, our untold truths are what breeds hate, resentment and bitterness. To contribute positivity to the world, sometimes, we need to fix what’s broken inside of us first. This is my truth… NO MEANS NO No means no unless you’ve already agreed to CNC. I wasn’t a sub at the time and there was definitely no CNC agreed upon. I was dating my ex at the time. We had gotten a hotel. Sex was fine, but anal was not. […]
I’ve learned that having the right person is like hitting the jackpot and the kinks are just a bonus.
Every time I talk to my lover, there are three simple words that sit on the tip of my tongue. Three simple words that I want to say to him when we’re in bed together. Three simple words that I want to say as he kisses me goodbye. Those three simple words may not be so grand when they are said alone, but when you string them together and it is truly what you mean, fireworks go off. Sometimes, it brings couples closer together and sometimes, one gets mad and walks away because the other does not feel the same. I LOVE YOU! Instead, I settle for the, “I miss you.” I say that I miss him every single day. To miss someone just seems less impactful than loving someone. I’m very careful with those three simple words. My ex and another guy that I had dated forced me to […]
I was just thinking about when I saw my lover. He called me baby for the first time. Granted, it was when we were having sex, but still it was the first time he’s called me that. I’m used him just referring to me as “you” and the occasional “hun.” Hearing him call me baby made me smile. It’s a lot more endearing than “you.” Haha. He had me on the floor and he was pounding into me. It was harder than normal. More passionate. Then he goes, “You like that baby?” I nodded my head. And said, “Yeah baby, you like that.” That was first for me too. He’s never been like that during sex. Maybe he’s becoming more kinky. Maybe he’ll end up being a Primal Predator and I’ll be his prey. Who knows what will happen? Even though we only had time for one round this time, […]
I spent time with my lover yesterday. When I am with him, I never want the moment to end. We could be cuddling on the couch, lying in bed, eating food, watching TV, or having our sexy time, I just like being with him. I know I’m a bit insecure, but being with him takes those insecurities away. I tend to have insecurities about my body and sometimes I get scared that my lover will end up leaving me for someone better. Then I walk into the door and he pulls me in to kiss me and he gets hard on the spot. I can feel him through his pants so he must find me sexy. He had a video conference so I had to wait a bit. I was sitting on the floor and he was sitting on the couch. He reached down my shirt to play with my […]
As a sub, I feel like I am so many different things. Submissive is the general term because it can encompass so much. I’m not just one particular type of sub; there are many sides to me. I am a slut. More specifically, I am Sir’s slut. I am always hungry for his cock. Always eager to be naked for him. Always longing to be fucked by him. I am an exhibitionist (mildly). The thought of getting caught naked for Sir is thrilling. Though, I’ve only engaged in hidden public like being naked in my own yard. It’s also exciting when I masturbate for Sir. I send him nudes and videos of myself playing. I am primal prey. I’ve always enjoyed a rough fuck, but I desire for Sir to take me and devour me like an animal. The raw passion and desire is what I dream of. I am […]
If I were to create a soundtrack for my life at the moment, it would be about both Sir and my lover. 1) Wounded Healer – Beyond the Black Sir would definitely be like the Wounded Healer in my life. Sir always makes me feel safe and like I’m not alone. The first verse says: “You take me down to this sacred placeKeep my secret, don’t leave a traceSet my heart free from time and spaceCome hear my sorrowYou stick around through my hardest daysLead my way through this tangled mazeI believe in you to embraceMy soul, so tortured” Before meeting Sir, I was definitely a mess. I still am a mess, but at least I have Sir to set me straight. It was a bit dark and depressing battling the demons of my past. No one seemed to understand so it always felt like I was being judged. It […]
When I was younger, I couldn’t wear tampons. In fact, it seems like I can only wear them when I’m sexually active. If I go long spells without sex, it feels as though my cunt is too small to wear a tampon. Maybe that’s why I bleed when I have sex for the first time in a long time. Girls say that you shouldn’t be able to feel a tampon because it’s inserted into the upper two thirds of the vagina which isn’t very sensitive. Maybe I’m an oddball because I can still feel it even when it’s shoved way up there. It’s not uncomfortable, but I can definitely feel it. I might actually like the feeling. It sort of feels similar to having a finger, dildo, or even cock inside my cunt. Although, having a cock inside my cunt feels way more amazing…maybe because I’m naked and there is […]