Something disturbing happened last night so this week, I’m taking a break from Fantasy Friday. I will resume next Friday. I talked to Sir and lover about what happened because I’m still a bit shaken. They always want me to be safe. But right, I don’t feel safe. I’m actually terrified. Why did he come back? I scared of him. I’ve done everything to cut off contact and it feels like he is still after me. I may have forgiven him for the past, but I did not forget what he did. And I wish that he would leave me alone. Yours Truly, The Sassy Sub Daily
The Hardest Person to Forgive
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*Warning: this post contains graphic nature and references to rape. If you are under 18 or sensitive to graphic content, please do not proceed. Shame tends to silence us. We don’t want others to know what causes us to feel dirty and disgusting. We don’t want to wear that disease on our sleeve. But sometimes, voicing our shame leads to freedom from the inner demons that oppress us. A lot of times, our untold truths are what breeds hate, resentment and bitterness. To contribute positivity to the world, sometimes, we need to fix what’s broken inside of us first. This is my truth… NO MEANS NO No means no unless you’ve already agreed to CNC. I wasn’t a sub at the time and there was definitely no CNC agreed upon. I was dating my ex at the time. We had gotten a hotel. Sex was fine, but anal was not. […]
The Kinky Cowgirl
“Anyone can ride with us, you don’t have to be a member. You don’t have to ride a motorcycle; you can drive a car and help us carry our equipment.” – Traci Dickson Mrs Fever’s third prompt for the Summer Writing Challenge is “Ride.” When I think about riding, many things come to mind. I ride in a car. I’ve rode trains, planes, taxis and buses. I think about life and how it’s like riding a roller coaster. I think about the Wild West and cowboys. I also think about of something more sexual and that would be riding cocks. THE FIRST RIDE Maybe I’ve always been a slut. I lost my virginity to an Asian guy (let’s call him Stuart) and in less than 24 hours, I was in bed with another guy (let’s call him Ricky). Ricky was Hispanic and I know this is going to sound so […]
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Every time I talk to my lover, there are three simple words that sit on the tip of my tongue. Three simple words that I want to say to him when we’re in bed together. Three simple words that I want to say as he kisses me goodbye. Those three simple words may not be so grand when they are said alone, but when you string them together and it is truly what you mean, fireworks go off. Sometimes, it brings couples closer together and sometimes, one gets mad and walks away because the other does not feel the same. I LOVE YOU! Instead, I settle for the, “I miss you.” I say that I miss him every single day. To miss someone just seems less impactful than loving someone. I’m very careful with those three simple words. My ex and another guy that I had dated forced me to […]
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I was just thinking about when I saw my lover. He called me baby for the first time. Granted, it was when we were having sex, but still it was the first time he’s called me that. I’m used him just referring to me as “you” and the occasional “hun.” Hearing him call me baby made me smile. It’s a lot more endearing than “you.” Haha. He had me on the floor and he was pounding into me. It was harder than normal. More passionate. Then he goes, “You like that baby?” I nodded my head. And said, “Yeah baby, you like that.” That was first for me too. He’s never been like that during sex. Maybe he’s becoming more kinky. Maybe he’ll end up being a Primal Predator and I’ll be his prey. Who knows what will happen? Even though we only had time for one round this time, […]
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