The Gaze – Performance Anxiety

“I feel myself in ways to be the product of internalized male gaze.” – Esme Creed-Miles From dresses to lingerie to the nudes I take, I wonder if I’m contributing the normalization of the male gaze. THE EXHITIONIST I’ve stripped and masturbated outdoors before and I’m pretty sure the neighbors saw me through the fence. I was in the backyard so the chance of getting caught by the public was pretty slim. Still, the thought of being on display sexually arouses me. I often have fantasies of being stripped naked and out on display like an art exhibit. Fantasies of being tied up and suspended while completely naked for others to see. We can’t forget that taking nudes to send to Sir excites me. Sir told me that I was discovering my exhibitionist side. I don’t think I’d freely admit that I’m an exhibitionist in fear of what it could […]

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When Tensions Rise

I used to write a poem a day when my blog first started. Sir would usually read my poem before I posted it. He knows that I’m a bit of a perfectionist and tend to beat myself up a bit when I catch an error after it’s already been posted. So Sir would edit it if needed much like he did for a couple of blog posts and a couple of chapters of the story I had been writing.

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