I think by now most people have figured out who CL is. And I think at this point, many of you are worried about him too. Last Monday was the last time I spoke to CL and after that, he sort of just vanished. It’s been a stressful week. I find myself unable to focus at work and unmotivated to workout; I just lie there thinking of him and hoping he’s okay. The anxiety and depression have begun to consume me as I worry that the worst thing has happened. His family doesn’t know about us so how would I know if he’s never coming back to me. So I’ll reveal my CL, once and for all, in my deepest concern.
An Open Letter to My CL
My Dearest Elliott,
I miss you so much. It’s been a week without you and I don’t know where you’ve been. From talking everyday to radio silence and it’s killing me inside. Empty days and silent nights…heartache, wondering where you are. You keep sending me to voicemail and my texts go unanswered. I hope you’re doing okay.
For the past seven months, we’ve kept us a bit of a secret. People speculated that things were going on between us, but we never really said a thing. But now, I worry about you and it keeps me up at night. Every time my phone goes off, I am hopeful that it is you, but I am quickly disappointed when I realize it’ll be another day without hearing from you.
Where are you? Please tell me that you’re okay. If you just wanted a break from me, it’s okay…I just need to know that you’re well.
I’m a wreck not knowing what’s going on. Are you sick? Are you hurt?
If you were just down the street, I’d already be at your door. But you’re hours away and getting to you is a bit difficult at the moment.
I think about the plans we once talked about for when we finally get to be together and it makes me sad that it might not happen anymore. The first embrace, the first kiss. How it would be when we get to wake up to each other. I dream about you making love to me.
But I don’t know where you went and I don’t know what’s going on with you. I keep trying to call you because I’m scared that something has happened to you. Baby, please tell me you’re okay. Please don’t leave me. I can’t stand the silence and not knowing if something is terribly wrong. Please come back to me. I miss you more than you know.
If you see this, know that I am sending you kisses from afar.
All my love,