It’s hard to come back after a hiatus as I’ve gotten into a routine of life without blogging or social media. Every week, I told myself, “This will be the week, I start again,” but I just couldn’t bring myself to write again. I thought I would post on New Year’s Eve to recap 2020, but I couldn’t do that either. Then, I thought New Year’s Day would be the day and I couldn’t bring myself to write then either. Maybe my lack of motivation has become a rather bad habit. But there are many things to look forward to this year.
During my hiatus, my relationship with CL continued. Unfortunately, we still haven’t been able to see each other because of the pandemic. Hopefully, that will change this year.
Last year, I tried to do Fitness Friday, but found myself uninspired to keep up. Since the start of quarantine, I had gained over 30lbs and there were other health issues that arose/became more severe due to the weight gain. I formed the bad habit of eating out of boredom and fell into a routine of being a couch potato.
It’s another reason why I lost my mojo. I just didn’t feel sexy anymore so how could I write about sex. But even at what seems to be my heaviest, CL still found me sexy, cute and beautiful. When I didn’t feel well, he wanted to make me feel better because he didn’t like seeing me experience discomfort.
In the last month, I have lost a bit of weight. It’s not 30lbs, but I will certainly take it as a small win. I still haven’t gotten into working out again. Working out at home is just not my thing and with the pandemic, going to the gym isn’t an option. I’m looking forward to when I can start working out again. But I don’t eat out of boredom so much anymore so it’s one bad habit that I’m really trying to kick in the butt. I guess I don’t have a goal weight. My goal is just to be/feel healthy and feel confident and sexy.
It’s been about a month and a half since I last posted. I pretty much stayed away from blogs altogether and didn’t pay much attention to Twitter either. It was pretty much a hiatus from this part of my life (with the exception of CL). The break was long overdue after writing daily for nearly a whole year.
There were so many changes that occurred in the past year that I lost direction when it came to my blog. I was a submissive, but I wasn’t a sub anymore. I don’t know if that really makes sense, but I considered myself a submissive, but I lost my Dom so I wasn’t sure about continuing with this blog.
A bad habit of mine is that I become dead set in my ways. I don’t like changes so I had a hard time even taking a break. But change is a part of life so changes are coming with the blog. They were meant to debut the first of this month, but with my hiatus, plans were on hold.
I will no longer be blogging daily as life is busy and quality content takes more thought. This is such a hard thing for me to do, but I must break my habits and do so to protect my mental health. Last year, I told May that I was thinking about starting up a meme that had to do with culture and sex/dating/etc. My goal is to set that up at some point this year, but right now it’s not my main priority. I’m looking forward to doing so at a later time when and if my schedule permits.
At the moment, my main goal is to navigate life as a single submissive. CL is kinky and yes, I strip when he wants to see me naked, but he’s made it clear that he’s not a Dom. What’s to come on my blog is how my personality develops and how my submissiveness impacts our relationship.
Seduction, Selfies, Showers, Spankings and Sex
I know many of you have been wondering who CL is for a while. And I’m pretty sure some of you have figured it out or have an idea of who it is. The flirting between us has been out in the open in comments and tweets, if you look for it. He’s been in my blog and I’ve been in his. Yes, he is a blogger and I’m certain many of you are fans of his. We’ve kept it a secret since August/September, I believe. However, it’d be nice to be able to talk about him more on here and given that one day there will be photos of us together…maybe I’ll give you clues as to who he is.
We didn’t really have much communication with each other until the fiction relay (this should be a big hint). With the relay, we began talking about writing then one thing led to another and soon after, I was his baby and he was my man. Presents in the form of sexy pictures as well as sex toys and lingerie/clothing were exchanged (another hint).
But I get lazy and I tend to send him the same poses all time. It’s a bad habit that I need to break. Sometimes, he likes to imitate the type of naughty selfies I send him. Really any photo of me is one that he appreciates. He has a gallery full of photos of just me because I’m his personal porn star (another hint). However, a goal of mine is to get a bit more creative with my photos for him even with limited space and privacy.
I’m looking forward to what this year has in store for us. There’s a fantasy that he’ll be able to pick me up at the airport later this year and I’ll run into his arms. We’ll make out and he’ll squeeze my ass for the world to see. (Hint hint).
I’m looking forward to the first time we’re naked together. He said he’s going to be spanking me a lot for being so naughty and for making him horny all the time. Our showers together is something else I’m excited about. He sends me videos of him showering because he thinks of me soaping up his cock. I’m looking forward to the first time he fucks me. CL will disrobe me because the robe he bought me is too pretty to get cum on. He really likes robes (hint).