Life update…Maybe you’re wondering why I scaled back on writing for some memes. Lately, it’s been harder for me to write about D/s. I feel like there’s a disconnect and writing about it just makes me sad. It brings up memories and I end up getting a bit depressed. I’m thankful for CL, but being hurt by Sir is still pretty fresh and thinking about things related to D/s is painful for me.
TIE ME UP TUESDAY
I know I used to post exactly on Tuesday, but ever since Sir ghosted me, I found myself putting it off. Maybe the joy of bondage was found in my submission. Without Sir, I am no longer bound.
But my motivation to do a lot of things has gone away. I don’t want to work, write or read. At least I’m eating again, but sleeping is another story. I think I need to reinvent myself so that the things I need to do daily are no longer associated with submission, but just living.
I put Tie Me Up Tuesday off until last night. So I stayed up tying both versions of the gauntlet and showed CL. At the moment, I think being able to be naked or slutty for CL is the only thing I’m motivated to do.
CONTINUOUS REVERSE GAUNTLET
The first gauntlet that I attempted was the Continuous Reverse Gauntlet on The Duchy. It was a fairly easy tie. I just refused to cut my rope so it took a long time to get through all the rope and then get out of the tie as the rope was so long.
It turned out pretty clean which I was proud about as most of my ties look messy.
Did you really think I was going to show my face? Haha. This one sort of reminded me of a cast because it went up my whole forearm. It didn’t seem as decorative to me.
I undid the tie and proceeded to try to the Rigger Gaunlet by Two Knotty Boys. This one was also pretty easy to do.
This one also came out fairly clean except for the top. It was really late and I just wanted to finish so I stopped worry about untwisting the ropes. I also didn’t want any excess rope to show so I tucked it under the gauntlet which I guess made it look a bit messier.
Yes, I was completely naked when I did the tie. I knew that I wanted to show CL so I made sure he’d be able to see my naked body as well. He said that my boobs were the first thing he noticed in the photos. CL likes boobs if you couldn’t tell haha.
I think CL’s attention is definitely helping me. When he tells me to do something, it also motivates me. He may not consider himself a Dom, but he’s been pretty good at getting me to obey him.