Summer Writing Project

My Shoes Didn’t Get Me Out Fast Enough

Mrs Fever’s current prompt for the Summer Writing Project is ‘Shoes’. Nothing really came to mind as I’ve never been a shoe person. I’m not the kind of person who waits in line for a new pair of Jordans and I’m not the kind of person who spends a lot on shoes.

Then, I thought about different idioms and finally figured out what to write about.

SHAKING IN MY (SHOES) BOOTS

When I was with my ex, I was often afraid of what he would do if I left him. He knew where I lived and he already took so much from me. Leaving him was hard because of all the lies he filled my head with.

The first time I tried to leave him, he was very hostile. I actually verbalized wanting to breakup. He was a leech and couldn’t have that because that would mean he was cut off financially. So, he threw a fit of rage and told me he did not accept the breakup. I was then forced to bring him food and give him money.

When the arguments and emotional abuse had hit an all time high, I couldn’t take it anymore. I was constantly crying and felt like I had nothing left. But, I was scared of leaving him because of what happened the first time. He would say I was acting like a stupid child every time I said I was going to leave.

COULDN’T GET AWAY FAST ENOUGH

It was apparent that a normal breakup would not be amicable so I started to ignore him. His texts and phone calls went unanswered. I refused to go see him and I refused to bring him groceries and money for rent.

One day, he said, “What are you doing? Do you not want to see me anymore?” I finally had the courage to respond and told him that I didn’t. I was shaking in my (shoes) boots as I waiting for his response.

Once again, I was met with hostility so I hung up on him. I was done and didn’t want anything else to do with him. He still wanted someone else to pay for his stuff and so he kept calling asking for money.

I wish I had gotten away quicker, but I just couldn’t get away fast enough. Thankfully, I’m out of that relationship. He still tries to contact me and I ignore him. The last time he tried to contact me, I was once again, shaking in my (shoes) boots. Fortunately, Sir and lover were there to help me emotionally.

Yours Truly,
The Sassy Sub Daily

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Summer  Writing Project - Shoes

sass c.

i'm just your average girl with a dirty mind. young, asian and submissive...does that pique your interest? constantly in a battle with myself whether to stay confined by my cultural values or to break free like the freak i am.

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9 Comments

  1. Ugh. Goodbye and good riddance — to him and to the hold he had over you.

    1. Hopefully, he leaves me alone now

  2. Glad you are strong enough to stay away from him and for your support group🙏🏼be safe!

    1. I was miserable with him. Don’t want that kind of misery again.

      1. Awww…i here ya❤️

  3. It’s terrible when other people affects us in such a way that we literally shake from it. Glad you got out of it, and are in a happier place now 🙂
    ~ Marie

    1. Thank you. I think sometimes, the impact one can play in another’s life is forgotten, but it’s always good to remember as we all can either leave a positive or negative mark on someone else.

  4. Urgh – leech does sound the right label. I’m glad you got/are stronger and managed to sever the ties.

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