Mrs Fever’s current prompt for the Summer Writing Project is ‘Shoes’. Nothing really came to mind as I’ve never been a shoe person. I’m not the kind of person who waits in line for a new pair of Jordans and I’m not the kind of person who spends a lot on shoes.
Then, I thought about different idioms and finally figured out what to write about.
SHAKING IN MY (SHOES) BOOTS
When I was with my ex, I was often afraid of what he would do if I left him. He knew where I lived and he already took so much from me. Leaving him was hard because of all the lies he filled my head with.
The first time I tried to leave him, he was very hostile. I actually verbalized wanting to breakup. He was a leech and couldn’t have that because that would mean he was cut off financially. So, he threw a fit of rage and told me he did not accept the breakup. I was then forced to bring him food and give him money.
When the arguments and emotional abuse had hit an all time high, I couldn’t take it anymore. I was constantly crying and felt like I had nothing left. But, I was scared of leaving him because of what happened the first time. He would say I was acting like a stupid child every time I said I was going to leave.
COULDN’T GET AWAY FAST ENOUGH
It was apparent that a normal breakup would not be amicable so I started to ignore him. His texts and phone calls went unanswered. I refused to go see him and I refused to bring him groceries and money for rent.
One day, he said, “What are you doing? Do you not want to see me anymore?” I finally had the courage to respond and told him that I didn’t. I was shaking in my (shoes) boots as I waiting for his response.
Once again, I was met with hostility so I hung up on him. I was done and didn’t want anything else to do with him. He still wanted someone else to pay for his stuff and so he kept calling asking for money.
I wish I had gotten away quicker, but I just couldn’t get away fast enough. Thankfully, I’m out of that relationship. He still tries to contact me and I ignore him. The last time he tried to contact me, I was once again, shaking in my (shoes) boots. Fortunately, Sir and lover were there to help me emotionally.
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