You are my sunshine, my only sunshineYou Are My Sunshine by Jimmie Davis
You make me happy when skies are gray
You’ll never know dear how much I love you
Please don’t take my sunshine away
Many attribute authorship of You Are My Sunshine to Jimmie Davis in 1940, but it has been recorded in 1939 by The Pine Ridge Boys and The Rice Brothers Gang. Although, there are rumors about who the author may be, the real author is not confirmed. Jimmie Davis bought the rights to the song and recorded his own version in 1940. Later, Bing Crosby and Gene Autry came out with their own versions of the song and turned it into a hit song.
Now, I wasn’t born in the 40s. I was not alive for any part of that decade. I am pretty young, but this song has remained popular even in modern days.
You may think that it’s such a happy song, but after carefully listening to the lyrics, there is a sense of sadness. We all like the happy sunshine, but I don’t know if I could stand the type of sorrow it conveys.
WHEN CLOUDS ARE GRAY
Lately, life has been full of dreary moments. We amongst this pandemic, protests and riots, injustices, and a world full of hate. My life has even more dreary moments. I’ve been raped and abused, very ill, and many other things.
What this song reminds me is that even in these dark times, there’s a shimmer of hope. I find the things that make me happy aren’t so much as tangible things, but people and the emotions they bring. I am extremely grateful for Sir and for lover. When days seem a bit daunting, I turn to them.
The other night dear as I was sleeping
I dreamed I held you in my arms
When I awoke dear I was mistaken
And I hung my head and I cried
Lately, I have been having so many nightmares. I wake up feeling scared and so I text Sir. When I am scared, I tend to address him as Daddy because I need his comfort. Normally, I wait until the next day to tell lover. Lover is asleep when I’m asleep, but Sir is awake when I am asleep.
I wake up wanting to cuddle. I want to feel safe. But reality hits me…neither Sir nor lover are here with me. I’m alone in my bed. I often don’t sleep much after that. I want to be held.
Before the world had broken into chaos, I would dream about either Sir or lover. I would dream about being naked for them and offering my body for their pleasure. I’d wake up horny and rather wet, but I’d realize it was just a dream. Again…a big disappointment.
LIGHT OF MY LIFE
The words, “I love you,” are a bit difficult for me to voice out loud. But Sir and lover bring so much joy to my life. I’m lucky to have not just one, but two rays of sunshine in my life. Neither of them are these happy go lucky personalities, but they make me happy and I can’t imagine life without them.
In the song it says, “You’ll never know dear how much I love you.” I have a hard time saying those words. Nevertheless, I do have these feelings for both Sir and lover and they’re a bit incomprehensible. I’d trust both of them with my life. I’d hope that I can have both of them in my life forever.
You told me once dear
That you really loved me
And no one else could come between
But now you’ve left me
And you love another
You have shattered all my dreams
I think my biggest fear is being abandoned. If Sir left me, I’d feel really lost. I’m not sure if I’d remain submissive because I can’t imagine myself subbing for anyone else. Sometimes, I worry that he’ll get bored of me and leave me. Maybe it’s why I’m needy when it comes to Sir. I need him. When we don’t talk, I get a bit sad. He’s like a drug and I am the addict.
With lover, I do really love him. And if he left me, I know my heart would shatter. The uncertainty of our relationship is that I don’t know exactly what we are. Am I his girlfriend? He’s hinted at it, but never actually asked me. Sometimes, I worry that this is just something casual for him and he will leave me and fall in love with someone else.
THIS VERSE IS LIKE MY WORST NIGHTMARE!
So…”Please don’t take my sunshine away.”
The Sassy Sub Daily