I guess instead of continuing to say, “guy I’m dating,” I’ll refer to him as “lover” instead.
I wish I could make my lover love me, but I can’t. I never know what he’s thinking or how he really feels.
I’ve lost so much sleep over him in past week. I fell in love with him, but he’s been acting strange. Over the weekend, he was telling me how much he missed me and blowing me kisses on video chat. Then on Monday, he completely changed. I swear he’s worse than Katy Perry’s Hot n Cold.
I love him and I wish he would love me back, but I don’t know how he feels and I can’t tell him what to feel. It’s made me cry for several nights because this week he’s been ignoring me and that’s never been the case. I don’t know how you can go from telling me that you want to be with me again to not talking to me overnight. It’s confusing and it’s hurtful.
I get that he’s got baggage. I’ve got baggage too. I get that he’s a bit jaded when it comes to love and relationships because I am too, but still I fell for him. I get that he’s insecure and thinks I’ll leave him one day when I get bored, but I always reassure him that I want to be with him.
It’s been a rough week and I haven’t had much sleep. I hope you’ll tell me if you want me or if we’re over so I can stop worrying about things.
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