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Please Don’t Leave

I had a dream or maybe it was more of a nightmare. There was a party at my house and my Dom was here. (I have yet to see my Dom in person, but I hope it will happen someday). I was pretty much clinging to his side. When it comes to my Dom, I am rather needy.

Suddenly, he disappeared. I was distraught and looked everywhere for him. He wasn’t in any of the rooms and he wasn’t in the backyard. I walked out the front door and his car was parked on the street so he had to still be here.

I continued to look for him, but then got stung by a wasp. Where was Sir? He was just here and now he’s gone. There was a shed out back so I tried to get to it. I couldn’t look in the shed to see if he was there because there were so many bees and wasps surrounding it.

Then I woke up.

I told Sir about my dream and he said it was a really weird dream.

Maybe it’s my subconscious telling me that life without him would be painful. Maybe it’s symbolizing the great lengths I would go through to stay his submissive forever.

The song that kept playing in my head after was Tori Kelly’s First Heartbreak. There’s a line in the chorus that goes, “If you ever left me, that would be my first heartbreak.” I know my relationship with my Dom is not the same type of relationship that Tori Kelly was writing about, but I think it still applies. He’s the one I’m most vulnerable with so I’m pretty attached. To lose a connection like that would be devastating…I think it would hurt more than when I broke up with my ex.

But I guess, I should try what Tori Kelly writes in the second verse:

Maybe I shouldn’t be thinkin’ so far ahead
Better just enjoy this moment
And be happy for what I get
But you know it’s not that easy
To get out of my head
So I guess that it’s a good thing
When you want something so bad

I should enjoy what I have with my Dom. But I know that it’s also hard not to think of the future. Sometimes, I do worry that one day he won’t want me anymore. I hope that never happens.

Yours Truly,

The Sassy Sub Daily

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i'm just your average girl with a dirty mind. young, asian and submissive...does that pique your interest? constantly in a battle with myself whether to stay confined by my cultural values or to break free like the freak i am.

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